*my TRUE love*

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

Monday, June 05, 2006
11:23 AM

Today he went for his ICT. Now recalled back, we 2 had so many dates which is unforgetable:

9 December 2005 - We watched "Perhaps Love" and he posted me with the golden qns.
16 December 2005 - My birthday and we 2 kissed with a pokey in our mouth.
17 December 2005 - We 2 1st time went to attend Gary's wedding as a form of BF n GF. Prior to this we went shopping for my clothes to be wore for the day.
24 December 2005 - We went for countdown for our 1st Christmas. And we have a filling christmas eve dinner at Liang Seah street with Xin and Steve.
31 December 2005 - We spend our countdown for our 1st new year and we meet up with my buddies.
9 January 2006 - Our 1st mth was celebrated in Suntec Convention Hall where we have my most favourite streamboat.
29 January 2006 - I gave him my trust to him as his birthday present.
14 Feburary 2006 - We celebrated our 1st Valentine Day at Suntec and I bought him his favourite Black Forest cake which is in heart shape while he gave me a ring bought from Moshi Moshi.
16 March 2006 - I joined his company to work as helpdesk engineer.
26 May 2006 - We ended our relationship with me breaking down in his hug.
28 May 2006 - We went out as good friends eating our lunch at Northpoint Tappanyaki then heading to Pasir Ris park and we discussed our relationship problem and we ended up enjoying our time playing on the swing and after that, we head down to Expo for the MPH book fair and Food fair.
2 June 2006 - I took out the courage and had dinner with Enoch, Rena and him. Ending all my appetite gone despite how he serve to me or peel prawn for me. Because the one beside him doing all the sweet action to him is once me.
4 June 2006 - Ms Chan wedding day and we meet in the afternoon to meet up and chat before he go for his ICT on 5th Jun. I broke down and cried in his hug coz I simply wanna let him go but I can't. Ending all my makeup gone and even some stain on his polo shirt. Wat a waste of my effort to makeup.
5 June 2006 - This is the day he went for his ICT. A few weeks ago I already started preparing what I should do on these days without him. Miss him, miss him and still miss him... But now seems is not very right for me to do so le. Even though officially he is not attached. But I can't help it and still will miss him.

Wanna tell him: I am happy when you say you still feel for me but just tat it is not as strong as her. But is good enough for me. I know she is not happy abt me smssing u so I decided maybe for your good I won't sms you if I can. Someone told me love you need not hold u back but trust u and give u my support so long you are happy. But hope you know like wat you say you 2 r not together officially still so in fact I felt I sms u also nothing wrong. I love you and I MISS YOU...

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*